Long time no post...had a drink, have the urge to write...
Life is just way too complex. Health and Life are fragile...long story short...cyst found on my panceas after passing out 3 months ago...had biopsy Monday...it's not cancer...found out today. Over the course of this roller coaster, one of my best friends died of metastaic melanoma at the age of 43 after losing 150 lbs so she wouldn't die of heart disease or diabetes...life is also cruel and ironic...
Also got blindsided and dumped after almost 2 years...at his request had been planning to uproot my life and move far away to be with him, and he changed his mind...scary thing is, I'm not angry, more than a month later I still want food thing for him.
Sometimes I wonder what it means...there has to be higher meaning in all of this, I can't imagine all of this hapens in this time frame for no reason...
