Uschi and Rex dump on me a lot here. It's become like the second grade for me here, and, last night, while things were happening, I got sick to my stomach, I felt dizzy, my heart was beating wildly, and my chest hurt. I thought I was having a fucking heart attack. Hours later, I felt better, but, since heart disease runs in the family - and, last night, the anger I felt at Uschi and a few others here was intense and frightening - I logged out.
Now? I'm not sure I want to post here anymore.
To survive being attacked by monsters, I'd have to become one.
I would have to match the hate thrown at me, and surpass it.
I can do it. Part of me would love to do it, as I am totally sick of being dumped on. You push hard enough at even the nicest people, and they will react with anger.
In having to deal with the bitter, anger filled ones, I found myself becoming as angry as them.
I don't want, and don't need that in my life.
