Most of us knew this allready. Still. Its a good thing you choose to coem here and talk to the people around here. Maybe some of the Nature girls (who have gone trough this kind of stuff allready too) have some advise for you. they are a bit shy, but if you show them your sensitive side I am sure they find a way to help you as someone once helped them. (Back when they all still went by the name YMCA-tribute-galls)