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TESSERACT ETERNITY

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Author: KellyM99

Date: 8/5/01

Time: 5:57 pm

Subject: MY FINAL GOODBYE (I mean it this time, I’m not kidding!)



I hope you people are happy. I’m going to kill myself, and it’s all your fault.

As soon as I’ve said my last piece here, and hit the “Send” button, I’m going to swallow all these nice pills here beside me, with a slug of Cherry Pepsi. Then I’m going to go to my room, put on my favorite Beatles CD, lie down on my bed, and wait to die.

But first, I have some things I want to say to you all. Please hear me out, with an open mind.

I can remember when the whole thing began. Back on the Best Comics message boards. Remember those days, a whole two years ago? I know some of you here were there back then. The board was brand new, and it was a lot of fun.

I was clicking around one day, trying to find a topic that wasn’t another variation of “Can X beat Y?”, when I saw “Losers of the world unite!” I thought it looked interesting, and so I went in to investigate.

My, that was a long time ago, wasn’t it?
Those were the days. You could type a post, hit “Send”, and by the time you were back to the main page, someone had already topped it. We were the first triple-digit thread on the BC boards.

That’s what caused the crash.

When BC went down, we had nowhere to go. That was when Funnyface created the BeHappy! Club. And we had chats. I remember staying up till 4:00 in the morning once, on a roleplaying chat. No one wanted to go to bed. You could go into that chat room any time of the day, there’d always be someone in there.

We don’t even have a club anymore, do we?

But I’m getting ahead of myself.

Remember the Hall of Losers? The Beer Fountain and the chocolate (anatomically correct ) statues? The word association thread? (Actually, I think we still have one of those.)

Those were good times. In fact, we had such a good time that Rod the Mod closed us down.

So now we had nowhere to go again.

Then out of nowhere appeared Tesseract Eternity! A board that Mike Tower, a.k.a. the Madman, a.k.a Tesseract Eternity, had bought with his own money, just so we could have a place to play.

And those early days were great. We only had four forums, but that was all we needed. It was a jumping place.

We expanded. We recruited more members. There were some real jerks (remember Captain Nasty, who wouldn’t stay banned?), but for the most part, everyone was really nice.

It was about this time that I noticed I had no life.

This was brought to my attention by my friend Cheryl, who called me up one night when I was in the middle of reading one of Scooter’s stories. She invited me out for a drink, but I said no. I didn’t want to stop now.

She got mad and hung up. That was when it occurred to me: when was the last time I had been out with Cheryl? November? November of last year?

I didn’t have any friends who weren’t names on a screen. I didn’t have anyone I could go out with. So I decided to take a break from the boards.

OK, no I didn’t. I got mad at something Electric Davy said and posted a quit message. I got 17 replies telling me not to go, and four saying basically “don’t let the door hitcha on the way out.”

I managed to last two and a half days away from the computer, and then I was back.

And then I saw another ED post, and quit again.

And came back.

Everyone got pretty sick of it, and I was actually banned for a week, but I pleaded my case with Mike, and he let me back.

I just didn’t know how else to get my point across. I’ve never been good at confrontations. People get me so mad that the only thing I can think of to do to hurt them is to hurt myself, and hope they’ll notice.

It all worked itself out eventually. Electric Davy apologized (for probably the last time), and everything settled down.

Then the Admin Wars began.

Mike was having trouble running the boards, which had expanded from four forums to sixteen, by himself. So he appointed six other people (Scooter, Funnyface, Francine, Doc, Martin, and Bzaro) to co-admin with him.

Big mistake.

You know the saying, “Absolute power corrupts absolutely”? Absolutely true in this case. The admins were going around banning anyone who disagreed with them. They instituted new rules, like the one that said all registrations had to be approved before the person could post. They said it was to keep posters from registering too many alternate ID’s, but some saw it as a form of elitism. They could keep out whoever they wanted, and none of us could say anything about it.

Except ED. I still have his “You are all a bunch of power-mad fascists” post framed on my wall. Say what you will about him, he’s eloquent when he wants to be. Barely a cuss word in the whole piece.

It’s sad, really, what happened to him. He used to be so funny. I used to love reading his posts. But when all this shit started, he turned really angry and bitter. All the humor wasgone. There was nothing left but ashes.

I’m not as eloquent as ED. I can’t write anywhere near that good of a statement about what’s wrong with this place. I can only hope my actions will speak for me.

Here’s what needs to happen around here: there should be no private forums. No sneaking around in secret. Say what you have to say out in the open.

Banning should be done by consensus, not the will of the admin in charge.

Start up the Beer Fountain again! I haven’t seen any fun threads around here for a long time!

Remember me.

I’m going now. It was fun, a long time ago, but it hasn’t been for a long time. I hope you’ll at least pretend to miss me. If you don’t make some major changes around here, I’ll come back and haunt you till you do.

Goodbye.

Hope Heaven’s nice.

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“Better dead than smeg!”




Even thought this guy didn't post here he should be added to the cried and left list.