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I have many, many faults, and very few redeeming graces. I'm slowly beginning to realize that I'm a pathetic worm of a man... no, more like 25-year-old boy... who exudes none of the things a woman is looking for in a mate. I'm in debt up to my eyeballs (think 30k), and my driving license has been revoked because of it. I have a car... but it sits in the driveway, parked indefinitely, mocking me silently. I'm not in school. I should have graduated four years ago. I should be teaching right now. But as it is... I'm serving tables at an Outback in Centerville, Ohio. I'm 5'5". I'm 125 lbs. I'm as pale as Conan O'Brien. I'm going bald. And I wear glasses. I'm obsessed with pulp space opera from the 30's and 40's, and I'm obsessed with Batman. They consume most of my free time. I've always got my nose in a Jack Williamson or E. E. "Doc" Smith book, or the latest issue of BATMAN. I'm bookish, and well-read (I'm an English major), but I prefer the old pulps. I consider myself a writer, but I don't write gradiose fiction. Once again, it's mostly pulp sci-fi or Batman scripts. I've written lots of different things in the past, but... that was in the past. I smoke a pack a day. I smoke pot daily, too. I drink Jack straight when I go out, I can't just sip beer and have a good time. It's a double on the rocks for me, or nothing at all. So I usually end up drunk. Fortunately I'm a very nice drunk. I'm co-dependent. I crave intimacy. I need something beyond casual friendship. "Being with family" doesn't count. I feel like, "What's the point in being happy with yourself if you have no one to share it with." Indeed? What IS the point? A world full of shiny happy people who love themselves? I love myself. Yay. My last girlfriend was gorgeous. Now... and this is so shallow... my NEXT girlfriend has to be as gorgeous as my ex. And how many gorgeous 105 lb blondes do you know who love short skinny pale bald guys with glasses? Who like pulp space opera and Batman? Who's thirty grand in debt? Who hasn't even graduated college? None? None you say? How shocking... I hate being single. I really, really, REALLY hate it. Fuck this "learning to love myself so I can love someone else" bullshit.  Non
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And, to be fair, one of my favorite friends there is blind and I take every opportunity available to make fun of that and we're still friends. That guy never fit there. He never got the spirit of the RKMBs. We're gonna keep an eye on the obits, see if he finally left or if he really did have a heart attack.
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I'm serving tables at an Outback in Centerville, Ohio.
I'm truly sorry. I used to live at Wright Patterson AFB. Truly a depressing area.
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I can sympathize. In fact I have my entire blog to back that statement up. I hate being single too, but it usually drives me to meaningless relationships that are usually physical only. I am looking for that person who completes me without completing me. You follow? What I mean is that I am a whole person on my own. I am independant and capable of exsisting on my own, but I am looking for someone who "fits", like a puzzle piece and accpets me for who I am and loves me for who I am. Not just desires a piece of ass from me and wants nothing more.
I don't mind friends with benes, it is just that I am starting to get to that point where I would like a family. Yes, I said it. And It is something that you don't just do. You work into something like that and that takes time. So yes, I am hearing the "tick, tick" of my biological clock.
I really do care very much for the man I am seeing right now. I have been in love with him for over a year (we've been dating for four months, not in an official capacity yet, we worked together at Harley and were the best of friends) but he is not wanting marriage or a family. How is it that I find myself with these guys that so don't want the same things that I do?
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I've gotten to the point where I don't care if I'm single or not. Right now I'm trying to get my life in order. (read-move out of my parents house)
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Now why is it that I can't seem to focus on my priorities? I pay my bills and make plans of actions for moving out of my dad's place, but I spend a greeat majority of my time thinking about this guy. When I know he doesn't do the same in return (not being insensative, just...he's not like that).
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I don't mind friends with benes, it is just that I am starting to get to that point where I would like a family. Yes, I said it. And It is something that you don't just do. You work into something like that and that takes time. So yes, I am hearing the "tick, tick" of my biological clock.
uh-oh...
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I really do care very much for the man I am seeing right now. I have been in love with him for over a year (we've been dating for four months, not in an official capacity yet, we worked together at Harley and were the best of friends) but he is not wanting marriage or a family. How is it that I find myself with these guys that so don't want the same things that I do?
ahunno...
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I hate people who don't cherish their freedom.
Even more than I hate myself. And that's saying A LOT!
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Paraiah...you need to lay down.
I do enjoy my freedom. Just because I want to share my time with one exclusive person doesn't mean I want to totally give up my "freedom". I like time alone and time with friends, but I prefer the company of a someone special too.
I'm not subtracting....I'm adding. Maybe some day, I'll multiply! Currently though, I am dividing...the papers have been filed!
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I hate being single too, but it usually drives me to meaningless relationships that are usually physical only.
I don't mind friends with benes
At least you can get that...
I know I have SQUAT in the way with luck with women -- in 24 years and change I've kissed ONE women, and that was at age 23 (she lied to me and cheated on me almost every night during the three weeks we were dating). I've notoriously taken my sweet time graduating, often for health problems, but I got a decent job and don't live with my parents.
Weight aside (stuck at about 230 lbs for a 5'11" frame), I'm fairly handsome, methinks, but I lack any innate sense of attractiveness to females. I'm honorable and dependable, with a good sense of morality (pretty pious Catholic, don't drink or smoke at ALL), and debt-free with a decent car, but it don't mean jack to the ladies. Being a nice guy sucks.
And while I'll never have to worry about balding, I'm going to soon shave off my beloved goatee, since my beard is turning white... 
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Weight aside (stuck at about 230 lbs for a 5'11" frame), I'm fairly handsome, methinks, but I lack any innate sense of attractiveness to females. I'm honorable and dependable, with a good sense of morality (pretty pious Catholic, don't drink or smoke at ALL), and debt-free with a decent car, but it don't mean jack to the ladies. Being a nice guy sucks.
Aside from the weight, you sound exactly like me. Your lack of attractiveness isn't from your appearance, however. It's from the lack of confidence around women. It's taken me a while to develop mine and I'm sure you can build yours up too. Once you find your "swing" all the other pieces will fit in place. Nice guys do finish last... 'cause they're considerate enough to make the woman come first!
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Nice guys do finish last... 'cause they're considerate enough to make the woman come first!
Not always. They just have to find the right girl. 
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No no... you missed it. Women come first...
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yeah...that went right over my head lol It's horrible being so sweet and innocent! 
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....right...innocent....right.....
And, to be fair, one of my favorite friends there is blind and I take every opportunity available to make fun of that and we're still friends. That guy never fit there. He never got the spirit of the RKMBs. We're gonna keep an eye on the obits, see if he finally left or if he really did have a heart attack.
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I know I have SQUAT in the way with luck with women -- in 24 years and change I've kissed ONE women, and that was at age 23 (she lied to me and cheated on me almost every night during the three weeks we were dating). I've notoriously taken my sweet time graduating, often for health problems, but I got a decent job and don't live with my parents.
Weight aside (stuck at about 230 lbs for a 5'11" frame), I'm fairly handsome, methinks, but I lack any innate sense of attractiveness to females. I'm honorable and dependable, with a good sense of morality (pretty pious Catholic, don't drink or smoke at ALL), and debt-free with a decent car, but it don't mean jack to the ladies. Being a nice guy sucks.
And while I'll never have to worry about balding, I'm going to soon shave off my beloved goatee, since my beard is turning white...
honestly, i don't see any issue besides the confience thing.
And, to be fair, one of my favorite friends there is blind and I take every opportunity available to make fun of that and we're still friends. That guy never fit there. He never got the spirit of the RKMBs. We're gonna keep an eye on the obits, see if he finally left or if he really did have a heart attack.
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why must you whore me out?
And, to be fair, one of my favorite friends there is blind and I take every opportunity available to make fun of that and we're still friends. That guy never fit there. He never got the spirit of the RKMBs. We're gonna keep an eye on the obits, see if he finally left or if he really did have a heart attack.
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Fine! I'll whore you in! Now make me a sandwich!
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And, to be fair, one of my favorite friends there is blind and I take every opportunity available to make fun of that and we're still friends. That guy never fit there. He never got the spirit of the RKMBs. We're gonna keep an eye on the obits, see if he finally left or if he really did have a heart attack.
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And, to be fair, one of my favorite friends there is blind and I take every opportunity available to make fun of that and we're still friends. That guy never fit there. He never got the spirit of the RKMBs. We're gonna keep an eye on the obits, see if he finally left or if he really did have a heart attack.
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Paraiah...you need to lay down.
I do enjoy my freedom. Just because I want to share my time with one exclusive person doesn't mean I want to totally give up my "freedom". I like time alone and time with friends, but I prefer the company of a someone special too.
I'm not subtracting....I'm adding. Maybe some day, I'll multiply! Currently though, I am dividing...the papers have been filed!
*sigh*
Same exact tune I get from just about every estrogen based lifeform I talk to. 
Sorry to sound like a broken record unto the female version of human kind, but....That's bullshit.
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Cherish my freedom? My freedom to do what, exactly? Read books, jerk off, watch TV? More work? And even if I do other things to occupy my time... that's all I'm doing... occupying my time. You mean to tell me, you'd rather go through your boring-as-hell routine of a life ALONE instead of being with someone who actually finds your boring-as-hell routine of a life somewhat interesting? Simply because you equate that with freedom?
You must have been in a controlling relationship. Two mature people don't HAVE to be joined at the hip. They don't HAVE to make their decisions jointly. Two people can have entirely seperate lives and identities and still find the time and the desire to be with each other.
How exactly does being in a relationship = loss of freedom?
And I started this post, so I won't shut the fuck up. Nyah.
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Why, Non, do you feel that you need to be in a relationship, exactly.
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Cherish my freedom? My freedom to do what, exactly? Read books, jerk off, watch TV? More work? And even if I do other things to occupy my time... that's all I'm doing... occupying my time. You mean to tell me, you'd rather go through your boring-as-hell routine of a life ALONE instead of being with someone who actually finds your boring-as-hell routine of a life somewhat interesting? Simply because you equate that with freedom?
So what you're saying is; everyone's life is automatically boring if they're living it alone.
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How exactly does being in a relationship = loss of freedom?
Commitment is loss of freedom. In every sense of the word. You attach yourself to anything permenantly that weighs anything over mere ounces and will cause you to cry if broken, your freedom is gone.
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could be Joe Mama. his love for the banana is also absolute.
Nope...not me. Though I know how much you love my plantain, Wednesday. I intend to respond directly to Non9, but I'm trying to figure out just how to get my point across without making comments that would be mis-labelled as "flame-war material". My short response to Non9 is "So what are you going to do about it, besides sulk and post here?" But I actually have a few constructive points to make...
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So what you're saying is; everyone's life is automatically boring if they're living it alone.
..........Okay.
Don't act stupider than you look. Anyone with a "boring" life of doing the same thing every week will get sick of it eventually. If you have someone else there you have another variable. Someone to add new stuff to your life and help find more interesting things to do.
Non: instead of being shit-depressed about no relationship, why not pick up a hobby? An expensively fun one like hanggliding or something. It can't cost more money than a new relationship with a woman would. It will give you something new to make you more interested in your own single existance. It'll show how fun a person you can be alone and thus make you more attractive to women who'll be all, "huh. It'd be fun to do stuff with him." Don't waste your time trying to find someone. If you reach a place where you can be happy yourself, you will be extremely attractive to a woman looking for someone like you. Because there's people into all kinds of people; everyone can be liked.
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How exactly does being in a relationship = loss of freedom?
Commitment is loss of freedom. In every sense of the word. You attach yourself to anything permenantly that weighs anything over mere ounces and will cause you to cry if broken, your freedom is gone.
Again. Pariah, you're a retard. Sure there's sacrifice in relationships, but you're discounting everything a relationship adds to you. You might have to stop with 7% of the things you do, but another person opens up 93% of their life to your disposal too. Didn't you ever share your toys? When you share you personally get less of the physical object but you get companionship, a playmate, a conversation, new ideas you'd never have thought of, different perspectives, etc.
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