Llance,
I am sorry for the loss of your brother. It must be a devastating experience.
I know that the aftermath of a loved one's death, where you attempt to impose some kind of order on the life that they left behind, can also be emotionally shattering. I wish you as much mental and spiritual strength as you need to get through this difficult period and I hope that the passing of time will go some way towards making things better for you.
