Ok, this is the first time since this weekend that I've even had the time or motivation to get online. And there's a lot of shit to read on this board, apparently. As Grimmy can attest to, 2005 hasn't been a banner year for me so far. Lot of shit going down that's draining both my time and concentration. Plus, I have a major side project that I've been trying to finish up since Thanksgiving that's becoming harder and harder to work on. For me, life, period, is the main factor to my not posting in the stories. I don't have the time or drive that I used to when it comes time for writing. I've been able to fire off a couple of posts here and there; but, for the most part, my mind just isn't working in relation to writing fiction right now. Work's been aggrivating as hell with us updating to a new system that isn't working properly, causing me and everyone else on campus to do a single thing several times before it gets anywhere close to being right. Personal life is hectic with my grandmother being seriously ill and my own self spiritual journey as a self-proclaimed Shaolin Scientologist. All this has kept me from talking with the people in the groups, which puts me out of touch with what they're thinking and what's their driving forces at the moment. I think that is why we faired so well in the past. Conversations about stories kept us all on the same page as far as understanding what's being written and able to follow up on it in our own way. And I can't keep up. Even at the current slow pace, I can't find enough time to sit, read, and write exaclty what I want to. I've tried writing posts several times only to abandon them because I run out of time or creative steam.
Plus, fight scenes, at this current point in time, don't interest me. And, to be honest, I'm growing less interested with them on a daily basis. I just don't find much interest in writing when things turn to fighting anymore, so I don't post during those times. Creating the VE concept with Grimm and Pro, for me, was an opportunity to get away from that, I think. Deep down in the sewers of my brain (that is my brain?), I think I wanted a break from all of the constant fist pounding action. I envisioned a more Planetary style of format where fights scenes came but at spaced out intervals. But, like I said, that's a personal hang-up; and I understand everyone else's desire for some action.
P.S. It took me two hours to write this post.
whomod said: I generally don't like it when people decide to play by the rules against people who don't play by the rules. It tends to put you immediately at a disadvantage and IMO is a sign of true weakness. This is true both in politics and on the internet."
