Bastie, sorry for the tough times you're going through. I can only hope things improve for you and tell you that you have friends here. Granted, your attempts at a Boston accent are laughable, Asians point and laugh at the size of your dick (as do most Bostonians), and Grimm's trying to be more than "just friends" with you. But you are liked and your presence here is enjoyed. I'm sure if you need to talk to someone, there are plenty of us who're here for you.
Especially Grimm. He'd be good for some spoonin'. You wouldn't even have to ask.